Stepping Out

of what?

well, out of the one thing most people are unwilling to step out of. you've guessed it.
it's something called "comfort zone".

i've started my walk with God about 6 months ago. that's about 180 days of a journey that i will take all the days of my life from the moment i was saved till i breath my last. and then you know what happens next yea? haha.

alright. ever heard of "revival night"?

i've came back from a three day-two night church/zone camp last week and there were revival nights on both nights. it's kinda like the normal church service, with the usual praise & worship and word. but on revival nights, it's wonderfully powerful and amazing, because people get ministered to by Father Himself. come with an expectant and open heart, and you will definitely receive as He speaks to you.

how'd you know?

well, that's because i have heard. i have received.

"Step out," He says. and i knew of what.

Father knows all His children well. even better than we ourselves do.

and i sobbed. pretty embarrassing alright, but it was uncontrollable.

stepping out ain't easy for someone like me. but i will obey, because i trust. step by step, i hope and pray that i will be able to step out of that circle of comfort, then move away from it. for someone like me, this takes plenty of inner strength. it's difficult. many times i just want to stop crawling and shirk back into my hidey hole. it's like i'm within the boundary of a rubber band, and i need strength to push at its sides. keep expanding it, keep going against my awkwardness and discomfort, keep confronting my insecurities. till i break it. sometimes, or should i say many a times, i really don't think i can do it. but somehow, i feel that Father believes more in me than i believe in myself. i look at myself and sighs. He looks at me and smiles. He knows i can, and i will. like i said, He knows us way better than we ourselves do.

take that leap of Faith will ya?

six months ago, i would never have believed myself to be writing about this. six months ago, i didn't have a relationship with God. six months ago, i was a skeptic.

i now know that when God moves, even skeptics will actually end up moving over to the other side and stay at the other side. amazing huh? i'm really glad and grateful to be found in the House of God.

Amen to that.

i lead my life, and God leads me.

because the Lord is my shepherd.

ain't that right? i dunno why but i just wanted to pen this down as soon as possible. as in it popped into my head and i thought: "i should get this down". so yep.

ANYWAY it's been long since i last blogged eh? haha sorry man.

i've just got back from Japan about a day ago. lovely country. love the scenery. love Hokkaido. love the food there. love the uber adorable little kids (man i wanna adopt one!). but like they say, there ain't no place like home.

Japan's really cool. the people are really polite and i think they've got the world's most considerate culture. i mean, you should see how well-equipped their toilets are. the toilet seat warmer was great, i tell ya. i was so pleasantly surprised when i sat down and exclaimed: "woah! it's warm leh!" nice invention babeh.

and i had a wonderful time people-watching. some are real fashionistas, while others (most of them) are just pretty much over-dressed. man, you oughta see the gothics there! dramatic make-up and all. they really love dressing up i think. and it was like the norm for high school girls to wear make-up to school. but i think that's more common in Tokyo. when i was in Hokkaido, the high school kids were more mellow. and i realised that what i saw about Japanese school culture and students were parallel (more or less) to what's depicted in the Japanese mangas. really! not just in appearance (i meant school uniforms, not girls with overly large sparkling eyes), but in behaviour too. i thought it was pretty amazing. i dunno, i felt like i've learnt something that would be of help to my dream career, which i am much more serious about now.

teehee~