Stepping Out

of what?

well, out of the one thing most people are unwilling to step out of. you've guessed it.
it's something called "comfort zone".

i've started my walk with God about 6 months ago. that's about 180 days of a journey that i will take all the days of my life from the moment i was saved till i breath my last. and then you know what happens next yea? haha.

alright. ever heard of "revival night"?

i've came back from a three day-two night church/zone camp last week and there were revival nights on both nights. it's kinda like the normal church service, with the usual praise & worship and word. but on revival nights, it's wonderfully powerful and amazing, because people get ministered to by Father Himself. come with an expectant and open heart, and you will definitely receive as He speaks to you.

how'd you know?

well, that's because i have heard. i have received.

"Step out," He says. and i knew of what.

Father knows all His children well. even better than we ourselves do.

and i sobbed. pretty embarrassing alright, but it was uncontrollable.

stepping out ain't easy for someone like me. but i will obey, because i trust. step by step, i hope and pray that i will be able to step out of that circle of comfort, then move away from it. for someone like me, this takes plenty of inner strength. it's difficult. many times i just want to stop crawling and shirk back into my hidey hole. it's like i'm within the boundary of a rubber band, and i need strength to push at its sides. keep expanding it, keep going against my awkwardness and discomfort, keep confronting my insecurities. till i break it. sometimes, or should i say many a times, i really don't think i can do it. but somehow, i feel that Father believes more in me than i believe in myself. i look at myself and sighs. He looks at me and smiles. He knows i can, and i will. like i said, He knows us way better than we ourselves do.

take that leap of Faith will ya?

six months ago, i would never have believed myself to be writing about this. six months ago, i didn't have a relationship with God. six months ago, i was a skeptic.

i now know that when God moves, even skeptics will actually end up moving over to the other side and stay at the other side. amazing huh? i'm really glad and grateful to be found in the House of God.

Amen to that.