promises, promises

no promise, is better than an empty promise.

right? right.
there is a promise i want to make, but i doubt that it would be within my capability to keep it. it's a promise for someone. but it's a promise i made to myself. no one knows of it except me. if i were to let it become an empty promise, i'll be letting myself down. but i do really want to make it.

it's just that it's not gonna be easy to keep it, duh. but i want to try. but if i still can't fulfill what i promised, then what? is that considered an empty promise still? i think so. cos if i really did try, i somehow believe that it would not become an empty promise. that's really trying ain't it? putting in your best effort and all. so i guess my problem lies in the effort part. i am born uh, lazy, i suppose. so why am i bothering to do this? beats me. i just wanna yannow? haha.

but i think it's more because i don't want it to happen. as in, the promise i want to make is to prevent something from ever happening. i really wish it not to happen. but i know i have to DO something in order to prevent it. not just sit there and watch it develop into a uh, something monsterous, i guess. so i guess this means i'm making it?

yessir. i promise.